It’s pretty hard to pare down your entire person into a reasonable, few-sentence introduction, but I’ll try. I describe my blog as “the bifeminist, interfaith rants of an apostate writer,” which pretty well captures what I feel are the important parts of my identity in a nut shell, with a tiny dose of snark. Labels are tricky things. They’re supposed to help define you, but more often than not, I find that they end up hindering more than helping. So if you come in here expecting stereotypes to apply easily, you’ll probably be disappointed. I’m much more complex than any label could ever encompass. But what the labels can do is give you a glimpse into what topics have a big impact on my life and, subsequently, the things I will probably like to talk about.
I’m a bisexual woman who is going through my Saturn Return (Yeah, that’s fun! /sarcasm/). I grew up in fundamentalist Christianity, not an easy place for a non-heterosexual girl. As a result of what I experienced within fundamentalism, I am a fierce advocate for equality, tolerance, and freedom of thought. I’m also a little gun-shy of religion, but I’m not atheist. I create my own brand of spirituality which draws heavily from Paganism, Buddhism, and Jesus (because I still think he was a pretty cool guy, despite what his followers have made of everything).
I love words. They’ve been my friend from the very beginning, traveling with me through my upbringing in fundamentalism, standing by me as I grappled with the uncertainty of losing my religion, giving me a voice as I found my own truth, and connecting me to others of similar experience. They’ve been a therapist, fellow activist, and divine interventionist–the one constant that helps me find order in the midst of my often chaotic journey of self-discovery. I process everything through writing. Sometimes stories, sometimes poetry, sometimes prose. I’ll probably post a little of all of it here. This is my letter to the world–I’m alive, and I’m free.
I am so glad I discovered your blog. I have loved everything on it so far! I just wanted to let you know I’ve nominated you for the One Lovely Blog Award at: http://unladylikemusings.wordpress.com/2012/09/14/one-lovely-blog-award/. Keep up the good work!
Thank you so much! I’m glad you are enjoying it.
mmm… sorry for that stupid look on my face, but what exactly would be a ciswoman…? I checked some dictionary, but I can’t understand the difference between “woman” (as we know them) and “ciswoman” (as I don’t)… Sometimes I start wondering what I am exactly myself… LOL
Anyway, nice blog. Subscribed! I’ll be back…
It simply means I identify with the gender assigned to me at birth. You might find more infor looking up cisgender.
I did. But it didn’t help that much… I was in doubt.
So, consider I’m a man, and I feel like a man, enjoying my masculinity. So I must be a “cisman” (if that ever exists). Then I also enjoy sexuality with men (despite very little experience, but a significant one), and am attracted to masculinity too. Then I am bi. But I also sometimes feel like a woman inside and have a strong desire for change and would even prefer to live as a woman… Yet I am not attracted by men’s mind usually, so I’d be a lesbian transwoman I guess… or maybe just a bi-cis-transwoman…
Then I’m a dumb person?… Or is there something between cis- and trans- ? dumb- ? 🙂
Well, I don’t think that gender has to be binary or set in stone. You’re free to either adopt terms to define yourself or avoid them depending on how they serve you in your journey. I certainly won’t judge you either way. 🙂 If you feel you want assistance in exploring your identity, there are usually local lgbt groups that can provide resources or support and even people to talk to who have been where you are. But in the end, only you have the right to label and define yourself.
This is a complex equation. Being in the middle of the “sexual spectrum” is probably not something one can claim easily. So far (and probably for a long time still) I’ll probably accept the deficiency of my choice for one of the sides… I’m not ready to risk everything in my life to try and be what I am, especially if I’m almost certain the gain might only be sexual… But I’m a full supporter of the LGBTQ cause anyway, and of anyone who doesn’t feel they fit any “norm” the same 🙂
And sorry for the various comments. My purpose was not to chat here 😉
I wish you luck in your journey, wherever it leads you.
Your “about” is awesome. I’m also a bisexual cisgender (new term for me) woman who left Fundamentalism (IFB) and pulls from Paganism, Taoism, and still admires Jesus. Looking forward to reading more on your blog!
Thank you! I’m glad you got out and are following your heart now.
Me too! Do you have a particular branch of paganism you adhere to?
Not really. I hate being confined and find it far less controversial to just not attach to one.
Sounds like you’re a good girl to have at a party
That’s an interesting conclusion. lol How do you figure that?
Oh, I meant only that you sound like an interesting person.
And who doesn’t like interesting people at parties, right!?
ha, thanks. I tend to get very anxious in crowds though. My party awesomeness diminishes in proportion to the number of people present.
In that case, I take it back. You’d be terrible at parties 😉
Oh, no! I’ll keep it! Perhaps it will become a self-fulfilling prophecy. You make me think I’d be awesome at parties, so I become awesome at parties. And then you can feel good about having changed someone’s life in a positive way. 😀
Okay, you’re re-invited!
Brilliant. simply brilliant. Nudity is not “immodesty” in and of itself. Showing the body is not the same as exploitation, or “showing off” the body. And, nudity does not equal sex, nor does it inherently offer sex.
Thank you! I’m not sure how this comment got stuck over on my about section, so I’m inserting a link to the post you were commenting on. https://sometimesmagical.wordpress.com/2013/07/19/modesty-culture-and-yoni-worship-my-journey-out-of-self-objectification-and-into-self-respect/
Enjoying your writing, emotionally and mentally. Thank you for speaking out loud.
Wow! I just discovered your blog. You are an incredible writer. I really appreciate your words on depression, emotions, and forgiveness. I’ve had so many similar thoughts, but couldn’t find the right words to express them clearly. Thank you for your thoughts!
Thanks for your kind words. I’m really glad you’ve been enjoying my blog!
I just discovered your blog. I really enjoy your posts on bisexuality and feminism. I’m bisexual too, so it’s nice to find a blog like this. I came across you blog by googling “vaginismus”, but I found even more awesomeness! lol
Yay! Welcome fellow mystical creature! I’m glad you’ve been enjoying my posts.
Hello, I am a newby here and I would just like to ask If I can share something to you privately and how. you see today and a few years back I’ve been in this kind of pain that nobody can help me heal it. until now, at this very moment I am in deep deep pain. thank you. 🙂
People have sometimes sent messages through Facebook if they wanted to share a comment more privately, but I ask that you read my comment policy before doing so. I am not able to offer counseling services or respond to emergencies. Basically I share my story and others can share theirs in return but if you’re looking for more, you probably need to connect with a professional.